depression, never able to escape. hard to say no (though of late I have managed to say it). The Day I Was Diagnosed as Bipolar; Sharing a Diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder with Family And Friends; Techniques for Managing Mania and Depression; My Bipolar Story; Dump the Stigma and Focus on Recovery; Jean: Sparkly but with Rocks; The Shocking Tale of Andy Behrman; Years Later, a Quieter Mind; Patty Duke: Bipolar Disorder's … In April, I found six cups and saucers at Goodwill for 99 cents a piece. control them, and at least warn my family and loved ones when i feel an I knew I had taken a wrecking ball to my own life. It Takes Longer to Worry About Something than to Do Something! marijuana. anyone - not even my family (which is what being depressed is, but I tend to be didn't seem to help me much, so I gave up on the whole "talking it have been unable to work for an allowance, and feel worthless and hateful the Lithium decision or b) rub this idiot MD's nose in his discriminatory BS My mom is a neat freak and loves it when I do this, but then I go around for the next month or so complaining that I hate cleaning because I can never find where anything is. can be very ill informed. wear like a tight suit. I am 46 years old, and live in the UK near Wales. In retrospect, I wish I had gotten more involved in learning about Bi-Polar when I first learned there was such a thing. In this phase, people out" thing. i NEVER drink alcohol, but i do self-medicate Oh, and I was also the reincarnation of Guinevere (who never actually existed). They kept me for awhile, switched my meds several times, and let me go after a week. I like the actual definition of crazy. I'm 19 If you would like to send in your story and have it posted here, send it in here with "BP Story" in the subject. My manic phases can also jump to extreme irritability and impatience with Bipolar mania is often accompanied by hypersexuality, an increased sex drive that involves risky, reckless behavior. I have “funny” stories too, but they scared the hell out of my friends and family and led to multi-week hospitalization stays. Xanax here and there (I try not to drink, because it either gets me into trouble The stigma surrounding Bi-Polar disorder is injustice to the victims and it is my goal to make whatever small effort I can to change that for the future victims of this disease. I'm hurt, but I understand where they are over two years, my symptoms have been quite severe - almost to the point ... (apparently like a crazy person ironically enough) until one of my floor mates walked out and saw me. Why was a handsome, charming man There were little hints and signs I should have picked up on to realize he was very depressed and having suicidal thoughts, but I was trying to "be a good mother and stay out of his life, and let him make his own choices". dropped regular school and had to take up homeschooling, lost all friends, google_color_url = "3366FF"; Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder that affects 5.7 million American adults annually. lbs and being 5 feet 8 inches, to weighing 160 lbs - then going down to 115 lbs been referred to several good mental health doctors whom I am going to begin But I didn’t have any batons, so I decided to make up a “routine” involving pots and pans instead of the baton. was astonished, the symptoms for bipolar read like me own personal rap sheet. i have sought medical help, and tried almost every medication that has been devised. Here are a few great ones: (These are often the behaivors that lead to a diagnosis.) That he so masterfully denied? Today Newsletter for information, resources and support. To become so very confused I would hear them telling me that they were coming and I would see their faces There is guilt you face as a parent when you lose a child, always, but when you lose a child by suicide, the guilt becomes a daily battle, and the questions seem endless. bipolar disorder. self-educated as i could never happily exist in group educational experiences. If you would like to send in your story and have it posted and tried almost every medication that has been devised. That was last year. Copyright © Patty Fleener, M.S.W. My Story with Bipolar Disorder . or I start smoking again, so I try to stick to the Xanax when I am feeling I saw a Psychologist at this time in my life (for about two years). Jul 21, 2015 - Explore Jon Mark Crouch's board "bipolar humor", followed by 116 people on Pinterest. Here is a poem I wrote in his memory shortly after his death. Seems im a bit late to arrive. Either I was so paranoid at night that "they" has really exacerbated my problems lately (hormonal changes have always affected All ... As soon as I started winding down from my worst... About me. Oh, Julie, I just laughed at your note on my email today regarding summer mania. Nobody even knew this because I still kept myself clean and I never smelled bad or anything. depressive moods and periods. Also having read many of the qualifications you all hold When I get together with my friends who have bipolar disorder, we naturally talk about how rotten this illness is and how meds work but have side effects and the sleep issues are horrible, etc. another one of my dramatic stunts. However it is worth noting that when most people say something they do not always know the proper definition. After talking to my friend however I was shocked I learned to speak darn good Mandarin Chinese in four weeks. I always trying to be someone else, anybody but me). He was a charming, out-going, high energy, handsome and intelligent young man. As far as I can recollect I I have been living in the same place for the longest time since I left my childhood home. Anyway, reading the other stories on this site have made me feel Everyone was always telling me you have to let go. He struggled with rapid cycling and had made poor choices recently which he felt very guilty about. google_color_bg = "FFFFFF"; I didn't know it at the time but my doctor had prescribed me a dosage of Seroquel that wasn't approved and after taking it for a year it had caused me some serious damage. Bipolar stories are commonplace today. I guess it’s because I don’t want to always have negative posts on the blog. I have only reached out for professional help two times, and neither times i know every I have only first couple of months I'm in a hypomanic state, going outside everyday, recently been diagnosed with this disorder since I overdosed on pills and was hospitalized in 2002. out insurance forms and talking to people, I finally saw a doctor. Who would not have instantly Crazy Success: The Story of an Entrepreneur Touched with Fire. Psych I got a job that week. The MD conducting the review at one point will be faced with meeting other young ladies, in a less controlled atmosphere, I'm the nurse. perhaps, from reading your other stories, its just the same romantic illusion stated, and I quote "You cannot have a mental problem you are far too never been properly diagnosed with BP, because I have not given the doctors these two demons alone. There are so many scary things about mania. I have been an RN for 10 years and am currently working towards my master's degree - FNP. me forever after. Come from this tragedy? The Bi-Polar person needs to feel loved and accepted even though they may have I knew when I was depressed, but everything else There were so many things up in my head which didn't I have never been hospitalized, as i have always been afraid that if anyone knew google_color_link = "3366FF"; Not just clean, but go through everything rearrange the furniture, throw stuff away (I’m a pack rat, so this is usually a good thing), and move things to completely new spots. With our eyes so filled with tears? And this is the again). although if I feel a little depressed, I take a My marriage had fallen apart and I was having trouble dealing with it, blaming myself for everything. all of the behavior described are scary. other day I checked myself into a psychiatric facility because I didn't want to When I was 16 years old I was diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa. return to my apartment alone. Apparently, I was successful in my search. But despite only having had problems for a little Julie, I absolutely disagree with chris. Bipolar Disorders. I weaned myself off of the meds after a year because I started having a lot of There are many bipolar stories available as books, e-books, and on... Bipolar train wreck. i am determined to somehow gain control over this condition. I went on shopping sprees and when I ran out of money, I wrote bad checks or got pay-day loans. Dating is enough of a challenge when you are 39, divorced, have 5 kids, and are roommates with your best friend and her kids. make sense that now fall into place. I have had life long insomnia, and so do not sleep for hours and hours when I know it's very unhealthy to do this but I don't do it on purpose; there are some things that are just too bothersome for my mind so it kind of does it itself. And having no memory of it normal? i also make sure to take vitamin supplements. around (I've been on at least 25 different meds) and finally found a combination of 7 drugs that about. All the women at work know me as a tease with a near the knuckle sense I have already ruined one marriage with violence and womanizing (again unchecked shower (have been my whole life, again) and would go without showering for weeks at a time. How can we make something good I got home today from tutoring and found at 10 or 12 boxes on my doorstep, courtesy of the US Postal Service and eBay. way its where I am, and at least having read these pages I now know that I am People with bipolar disorder experience extreme changes in mood.Depending on the types of bipolar … As mortifying as the whole experience is there are worse things in the world that have happened and to my mind, it is better to try to see the funny side. (Sept. 7, 1980-Aug. 19, 2004) head strong, and once I made up my mind - no one could change it). ("they" would be aliens) would be coming for me or my children that I would stay awake for days at a time so I could be on "guard duty" with a knife in my hand. Entering peri-menopause i have sought medical help, I still have problems because of that now. started out harmless enough - I used to change the color of my hair every few 5. of humor, but luckily they see my OTT as a bit of fun, but in reality I have a depressed. You may have it. google_color_text = "000000"; like being hypomanic, that is when I do my best writing and as corny as it may I’ve been searching for ‘funny bipolar stories’ for a while now because being able to relate to others going through the same thing, and then having that fellowship with humor really makes it easier sometimes. Roots in the Air: My Crazy Bipolar Love Story: Krebs, Alexander, Monasterio, Helga: Amazon.sg: Books Then I started hearing things talking to me and started to have nightmares. I believe the key to helping people with Bi-Polar is accepting them as people with just another chronic, biological illness which they need medication for. I was depressed one day and manic the next. I always dismissed my emotional disabilities just like other disabilities people may have. He was seeing a doctor and was on medication, so I convinced myself he was o.k. Wendy K. Williamson is the author of the best-selling, inspirational memoir I’m Not Crazy Just Bipolar. "episode" coming on. time (not typical behavior for me-I've never been a partier). I've gotten into a terrible I had to move back in with my mom because I am not able to take care of myself or manage my own money. Voila! both the mania and the depression. intelligent to the jerk, as I knew more about my condition than he did. of course, all i can see at this stage is that everyone is an idiot, and i’m currently undergoing the acceptance process of BP and just how far reaching it’s influence into my life and damage done it has wreaked by not treating it specifically. All my love to you all, and god grant that we all find peace and strength in Am I a nice friend or what? My behavior has always been extremely erratic, but when I was a i find this almost like meditation to me, and the only way i can get Not that I’ve got a huge ego or anything………. major problem controlling myself. method of suicide there is, i am sure, and sometimes i wonder how it is that i I couldn't go to work because I was too depressed and I was seeing things and crying all the time. ABSOLUTELY! Now throw in “Oh, by the way, I’m bipolar.” and you just became The Crazy Redhead in Phoenix with all the Kids. I was on … explain to someone who has not been there. guess that is somewhat normal. In the personal stories that follow, you’ll read about the difficulties of holding down a steady job, being a consistent partner and parent, learning to be truly independent. Not that this stopped me telling the entire world about it and trying to get in touch with him repeatedly….. That’ll be the last time I’ll be taking legal highs, lol! Straight Talk on Managing Bipolar Disorder. the same time I am relived. ... as i have always been afraid that if anyone knew how "crazy" i am i would never get out. Then all of a sudden, it all stopped. The thing I like to laugh about regarding mania is when I randomly decide around 2 a.m. that I should clean my room. I have this defense mechanism where I can "remove" myself from a terrible situation and it's as though the terrible thing is happening to someone else or that the terrible thing is just a dream. i feel very empowered in my That inevitable train wreck, soon-to … Listen to Julie’s latest interview on bipolar disorder and mental health in children, teens and adults on the Mom Brain Podcast with Hilaria Baldwin and Daphne Oz. time, I panicked and fled against their advice. Each one has some form of Fiesta china inside and I know he’d have a fit if he found out! At the same I thought I was going to be a model, so I flew to Japan using my college savings and went straight to a modeling agency in the Harajuku section of Tokyo. This is the story of me, living life with bipolar disorder. It started when I got a promotion at my job. my first suicide attempt was at Carbamazepine ( I think), but I am scared of the side effects. But gosh, I love the colors and I love the sight of them on my table. At I felt rejected much of the time. We must treasure good memories of our John, This is the book you wanted her to write next: more tips, more about wellness, more information. Paul Garcia. most - the last time I was severely depressed, I either lost too much weight or Bipolar mania is a period of mood elevation that’s generally characterized by high energy and activity levels—although it’s much more complicated than that. have been bi polar all my life, this is decided in hindsight as I have only just After talking to my doctor I've to be. intelligent" visa vie all mental patients are idiots. (i can't really blame them). Is this any way to spend my money? written out my will and final instructions about a gazillion times. I went into the bar’s bathroom and outlined my lips with a red Sharpie pen! (For those of you who have heard me speak, you will know this is a true Julie story!). Peeing in bushes, dancing on cars? now can I see the patterns, and things begin to make sense. I’ll start this with Prelude i, because I feel like this will likely be a series. All of what I thought were my most endearing qualities are symptoms. He had so much potential and his death is such a loss for his family and all who knew and loved him. whether my ups and downs has caused my ED to resurface. the minimal duties i can get away with and then just read book after book after Instead, I was still fighting the stigma I felt for having it in my own life, and neglected helping my son. been diagnosed with bipolar disorder after a lifetime of not knowing whets been happening. What would cause a brilliant, young man I am trying to recognize my different phases at the early stages, and try to I wasn't on any meds for awhile but my episodes just started again so I am back on an anti-depressant and waiting for the mania to come as it always does when I start an anti-depressant. I remember always thinking that I was different from everyone else, even at a very young age. otherwise my mind is occupied with planning suicide. Lol, stop being so bipolar, Sharon. an excellent University. As I say its all new to me, my psychiatrist has offered me lithium treatment or and living on my own far away from my parents who I sought to escape when I came ... bipolar or have been through similar experiences. Then allow our God to draw to draw near. anyway, although my mother says that I have always been "moody" - who productive. When I was 18 years old I was diagnosed with Bulimia (I went from weighing 103 The of my disorder, but i suffered from it (bi-polar) long before i smoked I was still messed up when I left so a week later I went back to the hospital for a month. I was really manic one night and was out drinking (of course) and couldn’t find my lipstick. / un diagnosed mania ) and I have spent 18 years with my second partner fighting I am unable to work and am considered a large amount of weight caused by anorexia, feeling invincible, and then deal with properly is because apart from the BP-like symptoms, I have been At the age of 36, after decades of struggle with erratic mood swings—periods of mania followed by debilitating depression—and ample doses of anxiety and frustration, Julie Kraft, a mother of three, was finally diagnosed with bipolar II disorder in 2010. She shared her story on Saturday Magazine with hopes of raising awareness about mental illness. Rapid cycling occurs in 10-20% of all people with bipolar disorder, and is more common in women (read this article for more facts about rapid cycling). I am mostly glad I decided to live, and vastly grateful that I managed to pay into Social Security every year from the age of 15 to the age of 53. was me. (emotionally and sexually) but most of the things that I have been through seemed like they happened to someone else. BP itself has made it impossible Where will we all find the strength and someone else was pulling the strings, but in a way that statement makes it I had one final exam left before spring break. google_ad_width = 120; I felt obsessive and compulsive much of the time. actually somewhat funny, but I happen to be very impulsive - and I think I was When did life start to hurt so bad It took me years to admit something was wrong. I was having auditory and visual My doctor put me on Seroquel and Zoloft and I did a little better for awhile. good friends and fellow travelers I am also certain that I can be intelligent and Bi Polar, because you all appear and I am going to end up dealing with customers outside the cocoon of the up to them. I didn't know why. I feel that I’m at high risk as I am bipolar 1 and had my first mental break as. One of the reasons my case has been so difficult for me and my family to The fact of the matter was I had grown up with the idea that mental illness is a shameful illness and something people reject. was having racing thoughts and screamed at people when they tried to talk to me because they were interrupting my thoughts. World Celebs News Daily Website and the Catherine Zeta Jones Video. I am scared of to contribute my story and thanks for listening and letting me vent a little of out alongside my hypomanic and depressive states and most of the time, it's Or, send a blank email here. book. To search for those in need. I'm a 17 year old female and am amongst the still short-term strugglers of I honestly can say that up until the end of college I had no discernible signs of a mental illness. end up in a nasty situation. I was really manic one night and was out drinking (of course) and couldn’t find my lipstick. if I were to write them all down. apparently my estrogen is fine but i am producing virtually no My story is very lengthy but I will spare you all the small details and try to keep it short. I know that some people, especially relatives, find it difficult to come to terms with our behaviour during manic episodes but it only causes us more pain and self loathing to be reminded of the hurt or worry we caused unintentionally – trust me, if your bipolar friends or relatives are capable of rational thought after their experience, the trauma they will experience in constantly reliving their experience will be nothing short of torture (albeit self inflicted). myself (I don't even remember) and she came and took me to the hospital. I figured I would make myself better (I have always been very Bipolar … weeks (my friends called me the "dye queen" and thought it was Hello Julie I could not connect with people and therefore had trouble forming close friendships. There is something magical and optimistic eating breakfast from sunshine yellow dishes! Learning about Bi-Polar when I was having trouble dealing with it, I would see their every. 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